Motivation

I'm one of those people that loves quotes. The uplifting, the motivation, the cheesy, the thought provoking, the corny, I love em all! Give them to me!! If they come neatly designed in a little graphic that I can attach to an email, or a blog post, or to a social networking profile, even better!

This was my mantra this season

There's something magical to me about a few simple words, thoughtfully given out, or sometime haphazardly spilled that can invoke a renewed sense of calm, or diligence, or bring comfort and peace, or perspective. I especially, as of late, am drawn to the quotes that light a fire under my rear. I'm 23. I'm getting married in a few short months. I haven't quite figured out what I want to be and who I am (and I hear thats a never-ending journey) and so in trying to define my path, those little motivators get me going.

I have a notebook, cause I'm a pen and paper kind of gal, and I draw and doodle and write quotes as I hear them or see them. From the net, from books, tv shows and movies, from motivational quote posters. I just love them. 

Being a child of the Foster Care system who aged out without having been adopted can sometimes make you feel as if you belong nowhere or to everyone. Your sense of identity can be misshapen to fit what has happened TO you. I've been learning, as an adult to not let what has happened TO me, define me. I am NOT my circumstances. 

I have dealt with feelings of abandonment, and of not being wanted. I have dealt with anger and depression. I've been lonely and I have also been loved and cherished and adored. I am the sum of many parts, not just the labels, or the case folder that often laid forgotten on a lazy social workers desk. I'm not just a mouth that needed to be fed, that put a few dollars in someone's bank account every month. I'm not just a victim of abuse. I'm not just an abandoned child.

I'm also a daughter, although my definition of that is quite broad given my past. I am a sister, with my own definition as well. I am a fiance! I am a friend. I am a lover. I am fighter. I am a dreamer. I am a really organized neat freak. I'm a young woman exploding with ambition and ideas looking to define myself for me. 

In trying to pave this new path, and keep my sights set on my next goal, instead of being crippled by any of my issues that sometimes come up to haunt or taunt or tease and frighten or anger me, I often look to my cheesy motivational quotes. I remind myself that I am greater than the small parts of me, I am the sum of ALL these things, the good the bad, the great, the ugly, the scary, the sad, the awesome, the wonderful, the quirky, the annoying, the neat and tidy, the reckless, the free spirit, the chatter box, the lover, the friend, the nightmares and the dreams. 

I thought I might try to start sharing a motivator at least every few days. I was also thinking of sending out a daily motivator email to everyone in my contact list (unless you request to be removed) and if you would like to be added, send me a note to iamcattywright (@) gmail (•) com and I'll add you in! 

I feel like sometimes those little sparks of motivation can really turn your plans, or your day around if things are going off in a bad direction. I also love when someone thinks of me, and sends me a little note or word of encouragement and I want to pay it forward.

I also hope that in sending these emails it will better help me to narrow myself down to topics and points and help in my writing! So I'm excited to start doing this and I hope if you are in my email list, that you will be receptive to this and enjoy it as much as I would if you were sending them to me!!