On this life...

So I totally tanked in my idea to start a daily motivator email this week, but its still on my to-do list. We just have SO much going on right now that I am working on posts for. Lots of big things happening, including of course the biggest of them all is our wedding. A BIG purchase just was completed this month which I've been itching to share. BIG changes for my little life all in a matter of months. I'm excited and am full speed ahead.

So some things get backlisted. But they're still on the list. I just need to delegate them a bit better. With all the changes going on in such a short time period, I have been intensely focused on "our life" as a couple more than anything else. Mostly, I am working on getting our budgets and finances laid out in a system that works best for US. Organizing my lists and my lists for my lists and making time for social activities and friends between work, school, and wedding planning.

If 5 years ago someone told me that THIS would be my life, I would not have believed them, at all. I sometimes feel like I am in a perpetual dream-state. To think back to all the times I was told or taught to believe I was worthless and useless and unloved and unlovable and that I would amount to nothing... sometimes I really wish I could go back and show people who doubted and those who let me down and those who tried to ruin me by the things they did to me or didn't do to me or took from me, LOOK AT ME NOW.

I want to give this same motivation to other girls who come from what I come from, because it's the BEST feeling ever and when you don't have anyone telling you and showing you that you CAN, sometimes your fire might die. I am so glad that mine didn't.

I am so blessed and so thankful for the people I met along the way who became my family and for my fiance who has been my right hand. Just blessed beyond measure.

This post doesn't have a point really. I was just reflecting and feeling thankful. But I'll be back with much to discuss! I am trying to focus this blog better. Originally it was for my school journey but as my plans morphed, so I has my motivation to blog... stay tuned!